well,2012 started with a lot of promise and now, down to its last few hours, I daresay it has exceeded all of those. To me, this year was all about coming home; taking risks and stepping out of my comfort zone; finding lost friendships. This was also the year we decided to give it another shot despite the countless times we’ve given up before. Thank you for taming the cynic in me and for understanding my restless side. Being miles away is a big obstacle, I know, but we’re trying and so far - it’s working. Yes, we bicker, oh how we bicker (sometimes like teenagers) but we can be mature when we need to be. So cheers to the new year! We may never know what’s in store for us this year but whatever it is… Aja aja hwaiting! :) Happy New Year, my Kyul! ♥

It was on my second day of school when i first met this guy, he’s kinda “cute” oh, not really for others,but in ma eyes he’s like that. Well back then, i never thought we have the same course, i thought someone like him would be interested on designing buildings or in a field where someone like him fits in. i guess he’s just one of a kind….

2 semester passed by after that meeting, we met  again, in the  organization that i join in…i was surprise back then to see him there, i thought i had a huge crush on him, but no! he’s not even handsome,…maybe i’m just looking forward to be “friend with him”..or more that being friend..but no! when we had our first assembly he was with somebody! somebody  whom he called “girlfriend!”..my world seems to crash! and my heart it turn to pieces! :((„,well,to make the story short their relationship didn’t work,and me as a “lady” who hope’s that one day this “cute” guy that i used to admire would someday noticed me…bla,bla„years passed again then we, became very close…as in close, were like best friends. just friends..but as we get closer and closer the feelings i felt toward him gets stronger than before.he’s very kind to me,he’s acting like a boyfriend but not really! he’s moves makes me fall in love…and it kills me whenever he share stories about how he love a certain girl…. i never imagine myself being his “girl friend” because i know, or i chose to believe rather that being his “best friend” is better that being someone he just admire..but the problem is this F***ing feeling seems to explode that i cannot control in anymore! i can’t help it„,buti cannot tell him, because i’m afraid to loose him..

When I’m with you, I act different. In a good way. I smile more and laugh more. I don’t have to pretend everything is okay when it’s really not. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put on a real one. I don’t feel hurt and alone when I’m with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. You’re easy to talk to, and you listen to me. I don’t have to worry about holding back with you. I don’t feel self conscious. I don’t ever feel insecure or sad. You show me that you really do care, and you’re not just pretending. I really appreciate your company, because with you I’m different. With you, I’m happy.

Ang Storya nga nmn parang Kanta lang talaga, noh? Napakaraming Version,Sana langtlaga ung mga etchusero at echusera dyan di pumapatol sa pirated na version , Sana maghanap Sila ng Original na Bersyon eka nga diba? Nakakairita lang nmn tlagang isipin na ung kaliit liit na kweto mo ee nagging trending bigla,dahil lang sa mga bersyon ng mga taong nasapaligid mo na mahilig magsipaganalyze ng mga naririnig at bigla biglang magkakakunklusyon na malayo nmn talaga doon sa Orihinal na nangyari di ba? Hay naku! Ganyan nmn talaga kadalasan ang nangyayari kya nga siguro an damingg nalalaos na artista e noh?Hay,buhay nang tao parang life lang talagang nakakaloka ng bahagya. Kunng ikaw medjo neng pa sa mga sitwasyong ganto at mejo papakaenosente pa ang peg mo, ai naku baka maloka ka nan g tuluyan…. Well, marahil ai, nagtataka ka na kung ba’t ganito tong sanaysay na ito parang anlalim na tila di mo na makuha ung sense. Ang totoo nyan may piinaghuhugutan naman kasi talaga ako, iasang pangyayari sa pilikula kung saan ako ang malas na napiling maging bida ( ang storya ng buhay ko). It was actually the situation of my life where I thought I’m gonna fall and will never ever get the chance to stand up once again. An hirap talaga as in, ung tipong kala mo nakalubog kana sa isang kumunoy. Un parang ganun lang. Isang pangyayari na nagpatagal ng paghiirap ko sa pagiging isang kolehiyala. Isang kaganapan na naglikha ng isang kwento, kwento na nagkaroon ng iba-bang bersyon. Ang masaklap lang talaga neto, ung isa sa pinakapinagkakatiwalaan ko pang tao ang namirata nung torya. It hurts you know? Kasi kung yung mga tsismusa dun sa kabilang banda ng kalyeang mamirata nung kwento mejo maiintindihan ko pa kasi mukha naman kasing mga despiradong manira ung mga un, kaso sya pa, a “friend” of mine. Nakakawindang di ba? Sana maginquiree man lang noh? O kaya magpa-copy right ok na un…hahaha…well, di lang talaga ako makaget over, superrrrrrr!!

i hate that i envy you!

Falling for someone. At first, you don’t even know it’s happening. It all just started with a simple “hello,” and you never would have guessed it would lead to this. Your mind starts to concentrate on that one person, and nothing else. Whenever you see, talk to, or even are near that special someone, those butterflies and that smile appear as your problems seem to disappear. Everything they say or do makes you smile. You just have that happy feeling inside again. It’s a GOOD feeling, isn’t it?